Now...I don't mean 'looked at yourself'...either! We have all done that... looked at our fat ugly rolls and love handles, in horror and disgust. At that moment, we hate our body...true?
No...what I am talking about is looking at the mirror and actually SEEING yourself for the beautiful person that you are..flab and all.
You know...for the first time today I was actually able to 'SEE' myself...sure...I still saw the HUGE flabby apron that hangs right around my midsection, I saw my thunder thighs and all the jello like cellulite as it glistened and winked at me in the sun...I even saw the flabby mass hanging from the bottom of my arms that wobble, wobble, wobbled, and the rolls just under my arms that jut out whenever my arms are flush against my body...I saw it all...but I also saw me...I smiled at myself cause you know...flab and all...I am ok, I am beautiful, I am fabulous.
For the first time, I was able to look at myself and my body without the hate...without the disgust. I SAW myself today...and you know what?...I actually liked what I saw. Cause I am so much more than just a body...It maybe what I live in...like a messy house...but it is NOT who I am. For too long I have lived in the 'prison of my flesh', a phrase coined by
in her novel
! For too long I have been ruled by my body...and it, of-course, hasn't helped that I have had to endure a body that most men don't want...hehe! But its time to stop thinking of myself as a 'body' and start thinking of myself as a person.
I have mentioned the book
I have mentioned the book
in a previous post but I really must encourage y'all to read it cause it has really been a turning point in my life this novel is actually helping me to re-invent the way I think about myself...all the self help books in the world couldn't have inspired me as much as this book has.
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Looking in the mirror and telling yourself that you are beautiful is a good thing because you are!!
I was just discussing the mirror issue with my trainer the other day. We both agreed that mirrors are not all that honest. Some make us look bigger than what we are or thinner than what we are. It's not fair.
Yes...I know what you mean about mirrors...they should invent one that gives a true reflection...
But still, regardless of whether our reflection is fatter or slimmer we are who we are...and its a tough job learning to accept ourselves as is...It's a work in progress for me.
:)flabuless
I'm a big fan of Jennifer Weiner's as well - I started reading her at a time when there were very few "real sized" heroines out there - her stuff is fabulous!
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