When Momma's Not Happy...

Today was perhaps one of the worst days I have had this year...After a sleepless night, I awoke to some hugely disappointing news, but to top it off...I am really sick, I mean really REALLY sick -- cant breath, gasping for air, don't even have enough strength to hold a packet of bread, head spinning, body shaking, coughing blood -- type sick. I have been this way since the weekend.

Yesterday, I managed to barely survive the day but, today, It has been awful. I literally haven't been able to survive, let alone get out of bed... My poor 3.5 year old basically had to babysit his 1yr old sister...cause mommy just couldn't do a thing...and my usual support network (My Parents) are out of town this week... Now that's a tall order for one that is not even 4 yet, but I am blessed that he has really been a trooper!

My little darlings have played with puzzles and watched Thomas the Tank Engine, Wiggles, Teletubbies all day. I am so ashamed to admit, I left a packet of bread out for them to eat whenever they got hungry....I know, I know, what kind of a mom am I...to leave toddlers to their own devices ALL DAY and only give them bread to eat. By 2 pm I knew I couldn't do it...I needed help so I text messaged a girlfriend, who owns the local bakery, and begged her to deliver, some food for the kids to eat for tea after closing the bakery...to my surprise, thanks to her, word soon got around on the grapevine of the small village where i lived...Suddenly I had people turning up on my doorstep with dinner and bags of groceries and people phoning to ask what I needed and what they could help with. I am getting more dinners delivered tomorrow and a load of wood for my fire which I desperately needed as my house is an icebox.

I shouldn't really even be writing this...I am straight off to bed in a moment...but I had to share this...cause there is a moral to this story...something that I want to share with y'all...

When you need help, ASK....pick up the phone and ask...I had people coming out of the woodwork to help me but they would never have known if I hadn't had the courage to ask my friend for help. There is nothing shameful in admitting you need help, in fact, in my case, it was probably shameful that I didn't ask earlier...then maybe my kids wouldn't have had to eat bread for most of the day or entertain themselves. However, as a 'recently' single mom there are many lessons I need to learn. Tomorrow, my girlfriend has also offered to take the kids for the day...I can't tell you how relieved I am...I will FINALLY have the opportunity just to just sleep, recover, and rejuvenate...just what the doctor ordered. I'll be back to my old self in no time at all!