I love having friends to stay...but the worst thing about entertaining is that you spend the whole time eating what you wouldn't normally eat. I had a wonderful time with my girl friend from Australia. We had a ball actually. However, between the 'meals out' everyday, the snacking on chocolates, the baileys, wine, champagne and vodka drinking almost every evening and the lack of exercise, this week has been atrocious for me diet wise.
Even the in the aftermath of her return to Aussie yesterday...a half of an entire carrot cake that was left on my bench has now mysteriously disappeared. Well...maybe not 'mysteriously' GRRR...and the packet of icing covered biscuits, though only opened yesterday, has been shrinking in size gradually and only has about half of them left.
Its not like I have just piled the cake on a big plate, smothered it with cream, got my knife and fork and eaten it in one foul swoop...NO, its having it there sitting on my bench looking luscious and inviting and picking at it throughout the day, bit by bit, until to my shock...I go back and it is ALL gone! The same with the biscuits...biscuit packets should be made with claws so that every-time my hand dips in the bag the claws crunch down on it and I get bitten!!! Instead, now I have to suffer the gradual pain as I get on the scales and watch the pointer go up over the next few days.
Then there is my smoking...despite all good intentions to quit I have still been puffing like a chimney.
I keep on telling myself...there is always tomorrow, tomorrow is another day. In fact I have been encouraging y'all of that very thing...but I feel like a fraud this week I have had 7 tomorrow's and still haven't done any better. I made the same mistakes over and over. I justify it by saying..Well, its been a extraordinary week, I had a friend to stay, i had to be hospitable etc etc... But everyday...I had a choice, I didn't HAVE to eat out so much...I didn't HAVE to drink 2-3 glasses of alcohol every evening...I didn't HAVE to puff, puff, puff and continue puffing, I could have stopped, could have said NO, could have chosen a salad instead of a bacon and egg pie etc.
I have to take ownership for what happened this week and bear the consequences of my own decisions. Instead of saying tomorrow is another day...maybe I should be saying NOW is an opportunity for me to be making a right decision...when I am dipping my hand into that biscuit packet, when I am two inches from sipping that glass of wine...when I am reaching for my lighter. Perhaps living a life of 'tomorrows' is not getting me anywhere because there is always and will always be 'tomorrows' but there is only one NOW!
Even the in the aftermath of her return to Aussie yesterday...a half of an entire carrot cake that was left on my bench has now mysteriously disappeared. Well...maybe not 'mysteriously' GRRR...and the packet of icing covered biscuits, though only opened yesterday, has been shrinking in size gradually and only has about half of them left.
Its not like I have just piled the cake on a big plate, smothered it with cream, got my knife and fork and eaten it in one foul swoop...NO, its having it there sitting on my bench looking luscious and inviting and picking at it throughout the day, bit by bit, until to my shock...I go back and it is ALL gone! The same with the biscuits...biscuit packets should be made with claws so that every-time my hand dips in the bag the claws crunch down on it and I get bitten!!! Instead, now I have to suffer the gradual pain as I get on the scales and watch the pointer go up over the next few days.
Then there is my smoking...despite all good intentions to quit I have still been puffing like a chimney.
I keep on telling myself...there is always tomorrow, tomorrow is another day. In fact I have been encouraging y'all of that very thing...but I feel like a fraud this week I have had 7 tomorrow's and still haven't done any better. I made the same mistakes over and over. I justify it by saying..Well, its been a extraordinary week, I had a friend to stay, i had to be hospitable etc etc... But everyday...I had a choice, I didn't HAVE to eat out so much...I didn't HAVE to drink 2-3 glasses of alcohol every evening...I didn't HAVE to puff, puff, puff and continue puffing, I could have stopped, could have said NO, could have chosen a salad instead of a bacon and egg pie etc.
I have to take ownership for what happened this week and bear the consequences of my own decisions. Instead of saying tomorrow is another day...maybe I should be saying NOW is an opportunity for me to be making a right decision...when I am dipping my hand into that biscuit packet, when I am two inches from sipping that glass of wine...when I am reaching for my lighter. Perhaps living a life of 'tomorrows' is not getting me anywhere because there is always and will always be 'tomorrows' but there is only one NOW!
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