I can't believe I am writing tonight...I have had an incredibly tough day...
Today 3rd May 2007 was the court proceedings to do with final property settlement with my X. Some of you would have read my previous posts regarding the situation with my X and today was D-Day really. Although I won the case to force the sale of our only asset, our Matrimonial Home, in order to pay the debts that had amounted during the course of our marriage it is a bitter victory really and I was unprepared for how emotional today has been.
I know, that I am taking the 'right' and most logical steps to get my life back...but it is also a bitter reminder of how things were NOT supposed to turn out...I mean, there was a time when I had thought I was madly in love with this man and actually wanted to spend the rest of my life with him and yet here I am ending all ties to him...This is just the first step in our journey to Divorce but it is a big step and it has left me strangely raw today. I never imagined that it would come to this. I make light of it...but going through divorce, even a mutual one...is really rough...and I guess always harder for the one who hasn't moved on yet...I am sure him and his girlfriend are now planning how they are going to screw me out of my fair share of the cut and travel the world together...I wish I had someone to make such plans with as well! Even just a good hard screw in the Bahamas somewhere would be great, perhaps I should book my flight and take my chances! hehehe! Hey....give me a break it has been 2.5 years....at least I haven't lost my sense of humour. Hopefully I will get back to my exuberant usual self when all this is over.
Today 3rd May 2007 was the court proceedings to do with final property settlement with my X. Some of you would have read my previous posts regarding the situation with my X and today was D-Day really. Although I won the case to force the sale of our only asset, our Matrimonial Home, in order to pay the debts that had amounted during the course of our marriage it is a bitter victory really and I was unprepared for how emotional today has been.
I know, that I am taking the 'right' and most logical steps to get my life back...but it is also a bitter reminder of how things were NOT supposed to turn out...I mean, there was a time when I had thought I was madly in love with this man and actually wanted to spend the rest of my life with him and yet here I am ending all ties to him...This is just the first step in our journey to Divorce but it is a big step and it has left me strangely raw today. I never imagined that it would come to this. I make light of it...but going through divorce, even a mutual one...is really rough...and I guess always harder for the one who hasn't moved on yet...I am sure him and his girlfriend are now planning how they are going to screw me out of my fair share of the cut and travel the world together...I wish I had someone to make such plans with as well! Even just a good hard screw in the Bahamas somewhere would be great, perhaps I should book my flight and take my chances! hehehe! Hey....give me a break it has been 2.5 years....at least I haven't lost my sense of humour. Hopefully I will get back to my exuberant usual self when all this is over.
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