Just Shoot me!

I saw this picture on the web last night and at first i though wow!!! what a great success story...



...but then I read the fine print...this is not depicting weight loss but weight gain! she went from the first picture to the second picture in 3 years...Oh MY GOD. Talk about motivation...there is no way I want to be moving in the opposite direction. For some reason this picture saddens me if I had a body like that one there is NO way I would let myself go to become like the second pic...or would I?

This is my quandary. Will I ever be OK with myself and my body or will true contentment prove illusive even once I have reached my goal! Will I have the motivation to, not only, loose the weight but to keep it off! The work doesn't stop once you reach your goal and sometimes I wonder if I will have the stick-ability to keep it off.

I haven't always been big...infact I was quite slim at around 19years here is a picture to demonstrate:



But depression and bad relationships hit and I went from that to THIS:



It has happened before....please just shoot me before it happens AGAIN!